This morning I received a message on Instagram that made me sit down and think for a while… I decided to share it with you. So here it goes:
“Hi Monika, my name is (…)
I’m sorry, I don’t usually message people out of random but I followed you & I picked up on your energy and I feel like you need some clarity which I can provide. I am sensing like a blockage and I felt you are at a crossroad. Please let me know if you’re interested in getting a reading with me”
It made me think. Am I on a crossroad? Sure. I am always on some crossroad. Actually I feel like my life is a multistorey labyrinth of infinite crossroads. Sometimes the path is so obvious that it’s really easy to choose the next turn. One path is bright, wide and inviting, it’s calling me, I can see far far ahead and I feel nice shivers when I look there. I know I HAVE TO go there! I MUST! I see a bunch of nice people down the road, sun is shinning and my heart is pounding with excitement. The other path may be a little dark , it feels heavy to go there, feels like old patterns are creeping in on the way.. So I know where to go, I take the turn and walk with confidence.
But sometimes I come to the crossroad and both paths are foggy. I see no horizon at all and I’m full of uncertainty and anxiety. In times like this I all I can do is sit on this corner and look. Not into any of the paths but deep inside of ME. In the past I used to jump ahead of myself, try one path and if it didn’t work go back and try another. But these days energy is different. This time I KNOW it is not the good idea to push forward and to take a blind leap. I feel I need to conserve my energy for a little while and practice patience. Sit still, breathe and meditate until I KNOW what to do, where to, what choice is the best. I feel like if sit there on this crossroad for a while one of those paths will clear a little.
I am really grateful to this girl for her message and kindness, she already contributed greatly to me and my self-healing process. But I’m not ready yet. Although it is very tempting seek advice outside of me, go for a psychic reading, book a life coach or ask a friend, this time I need to figure it out for myself. If there’s a blockage I will dismantle it one screw at the time. If there’s a tangle I will sit and do my work until it’s untangled. And it will happen when it’s time. When I’m ready. I used to jump into things too quickly, before I was ready, prepared or qualified. Although that was a lot of fun to navigate in the unknown and prove to myself that YES I CAN! But this time I choose patience and work, I need to be prepared. I require some kind of plan before I move. Because what’s coming next may be THE WORK OF MY LIFE, something I can’t just drop if it doesn’t work out. A LIFETIME COMMITMENT. I committed myself a few years ago to be a healer and I graduated a few courses, gained some certificates, practiced my techniques and spent the last 7 years observing the process and learning more and more about how people work. I am in touch with most of people who ever came for a healing session to me. Thanks to social media I get to observe changes and transformation they go through even a few years after we worked together. My energy was the one to ignite change, for years. But recently something shifted, something started to change… My vibrations shifted, so my interests, and my clients also changed.
I think I chose this path at the age of 8 or 9. When I went to my religion class for the first time and read about Jesus, miracles and healings he performed I went home and told my mom I want to be like Jesus, I want to heal people. I want to “disappear” disease. My mom laughed, handed me a Medical Encyclopedia and said “try to get to know disease before you take on this fight”. I spent next couple of years studying it. I got obsessed with a Russian distant healer my parents watched on the telly and this dream was created “I want to be THAT. I want to be HIM. WHATEVER IT TAKES. I was only 13. I didn’t realise back than that it would take A LOT. A lot of pain and disease I have to get to known deeply and intimately. I also took biology in high school and chose it for my living cert to get to study more about human anatomy and physiology. I also took English as my leading subject in hight school and was learning it like my life depended on it. And guess what! I ended up in Ireland. So yes, I believe on some level we KNOW what we’re about to become.
I hope that in years to come I will be able to contribute even more in the global energy shift and healing of the Planet and people. On a bigger scale. Not sure how this is going to go down but I believe my Soul knows. She planed it, I will let Her guide me. But I know one thing for sure. 100%. Love is The Key. My website loveiskey.ie is coming soon. Working on it. Sending you much much LOVE beautiful people who take time to read my blog